Thought for monday

taking a more rational approach to all this, I think i'm going to try to remain a bit calmer in the face of adversity. I need to let it wash over me and dissipate. So i can't paint at the moment. it's not that bad. I needed to paint those shitty paintings to have visual aides to accept that i am too unwell to paint. not everything is black and white. i don't need to stop one thing and do another. or be 100% focused pushing towards a goal to the point where i don't eat or sleep. maybe it is ok just to relax a bit until things improve and then resume things at a different pace.

I need to remember i am not producing a collection. It's doesn't have to be a horde of objects that i can create. Relax.