60 situps
20 crunches
60 lifts
lost 5 pounds already. which is a start.
i'm feeling pretty down about my painting. i haven't produced anything good for a long time. it's a case of too many cooks. everyone tells me what to do all the time, and i listen. so i'm people pleasing everybody and then not making me happy. so i just feel bummed and it's all been a total bunch of cock for fucking ages. i'm going to try and do some stuff that is fun with painting. but at the same time i don't feel like i even want to anymore. is this all fruity angst or a symptom of some deep soul sickness that means that i really can't paint anymore.
or maybe i'm a jock now that i've done some situps. ha ha ha.
