boring.

was sat in the garage and put some paynes gravy on a painting that i'm 'working on'. the quote marks indicating that i haven't done much work on it because it is a bit of a weird painting and i don't really WANT to do it. but it's in the way of doing the next one. i've literally done very little on it, but i need to work it out of the system before i can move on to different things. i've looked at it intently for over a week and have seen loads of stuff appearing in it and all the bright possibilities, but none of them are honest. they are all however feasible. yet the real painting actually isn't. it's not do-able. as in i can't bring myself to do it. it feel a bit like an exercise in futility. which it really shouldn't be. but then i just painted on the paynes grey and it re-awoke the interest. but i do need to go to bed. so therein lies the dilema. stay up all night doing a painting that is probably pointless, but then moving on to something else, or go to bed and attempt it tomorrow when i'm not in the mood to do it. it's not really a dilema. more melodramatic waffling. i'm going to try and go to bed and not think about it.