Struck with intense feeling of worthlessness when I dropped off the paintings to be framed so I'm doing another 8 which are more in my established style. I found that there was too much of an ache.
There is actually a physical pain associated with this nonsense. Chest + stomach pains and tiredness. I have already completed two of the new set of 8 and there are another two drying before first round of ink. I just can't shake the feeling this is all a total waste of time. I don't feel like I can ever be happy with painting or pots. It's all so exhausting and heart breaking.
