sa ft

it's weird how moments after putting up pictures, drawings and paintings i want to take them down because i hate them. like my new painting work. it's solid and there is work and research and theory behind them, but at the same time i hate them and myself. it's not popular to announce that at dinner parties. but it's fundamental to the whole process that evolves ever single fucking time i do anything at all. black and white thinking. cognitive distortions. that's fascinating stuff also.