anyway. i've been painting more paintings of the fat pigeon. i'll post them a bit later after they have dried and i've varnished them. i'm very tired. accidentally bought too many canvases of the same size and shape. which is an annoyance. i really need to find some satisfaction in painting something that doesn't give me the high art low art complex. i really have a serious self appreciation deficiency at the moment to the point where i'm struggling to make any marks at all and instead i am just trying to paint through it. i want to take things back a step to where i feel comfortable to just paint without expectation from myself. Self analysis of work as it unfolds is not a healthy practise for me if i wish to be productive. so i'm trying to drop my scale back and try new things. try to get out of this un-satisfying funk. so it's time to paint for something. i guess.
