For a few months of the year I have to really restrict my interaction with other people because I find that I get overly confused with my interpretation of things that I don't gave complete control over. I find I read much more into people's motivations and end up getting to a point where I become extremely confused about the parameters of relationships and work/personal elements. So in a round about way I have to stop working on other stuff and have to focus on my work exclusively. I need to find my horrible green thermal underwear and start working in the garage more intensely on paintings. I was working on another story, but as a relaxation exercise. But for now that's on the back burner.
I had a bit of an epiphany on Friday when I saw Martin's work and the scale and quantity of work. It made me feel incredibly lazy. And I think in a big way that it is because I've not made anywhere near as much work this year as I normally do because I've been distracted and in a neurotic cycle. I've been too focused on different things, and it's only when I draw a line around myself and stay in that area that I really commit to what I am doing. Subsequently that's the plan for now.
This smiley toothpaste.
