i am still not painting because i don't have the energy. started back at uni today and i apparently have to underpin my coming project with a philosophy that runs throughout it. said philosophy being underpinned with research and stuff. the thing is i don't appreciate the conceptual angle and talking bullshit around art. 'art' talk is normally a substitute for creative output. i am too tired all the time for that. i feel like i only have a certain amount of energy, and the painting and drawing i do is what i want to focus on. it is essentially the language. once i made a mad onion and smashed it up the face and it made me cry. and not just because of the amino acid sulfoxides.
yawn
this was from me rinsing out jess on cod4
